wish my old days were all laughter

well..we go to the park last 2 days and i wish i were a kid to play that

n suddenly when i editing this photos,i gonna remember my moment with this beloved in my heart

hehe...2 evryone : live life with sweet memories even if it's not long..even if it's just 5 minutes.........

to all those person in this picture : i love u all..thanks and thanks for the support u gave me

i hope we could meet again as u know after july..we are going to study in university

i know maybe sometymes we have rough tymes n i'm sorry 4 that

but i want to u to know..

i really love u all...

i was really greatful to have someone

who is supporting even if

it's hard sometymes...

i love my cousins..they are like my own sister

n  nicko..he should be the liltle brother but he's so tall!

lol..but it doesn't matter..i love them all....

they are the sweetest things i have in my life

no matter where i am,they are in my heart..

raining,owh baby it's rainy day

bad connection!this is wat i hate!

i was enjoying my tyme with surf the internet!
but suddenly the connection becomes slower..ouffff!
=o=

why??
owh..anyway..the drums sounds coming from my stomach is getting louder n i have to eat....

i get hungry faster afater the PLKN thing..

ermm...yummy isb't it?????

wish i could eat those right now..!owh..pizza special delivery

ermmmmmmmmmmmmm....yummylicious

i add the chatbox

lol..but it's kinda funny..i just add it for a while..haha...bowing maw cri len..so

i just this simple chatbox...hehe

IT WAS SO TRUE!

well,i read it while i was actually checking my yahoo mail..
and i saw this article '13 things your hairstylist won't tell you'
and it's all true...

it was true..no hairstyleist will tell this 13 things 2 you when u are doing ur hair,when u explain what u want,
n after he done with our hair...lol..
1 out of this 13 things actually caught my attention coz it actually happens 2 me..
No.10:i actually told that hairstylist to cut like did last time but she cut it into thinest and boyish hairstylist i ever seen..i'm so mad and after 3 days ..i just go and perm and act don't know to my hairstyle..!huhue..i hope my hair grow back and my hair doesn't screwed up again after this...

1. I'm a beautician, not a magician. I can give you Gisele Bündchen's haircut, but I can't give you her face.

2. Come at least five minutes early. If you're running late, please call ahead. Show me some basic respect. This is a business, not fun and games.

3. Don't ask me to "squeeze" you in when I'm already booked. I'd be taking time and effort away from other clients. You wouldn't like being treated that way.

4. Hairdresser school does not teach about counter transference, projection, negative reinforcement, or personality disorders. If you're looking for a therapist, all I have is a tail comb and an opinion.

Think be4 go to salon..the hairstylist might be saying yes2x and yes but she will be confuse..so maybe if u have the picture of hairstyle u want..u can cut it and show 2 the hairstylist..ohoho..or maybe u have the pic of ur old hair that u want cut it again just like that..bring the photo!hehe

IT WAS SO TRUE!

well,i read it while i was actually checking my yahoo mail..
and i saw this article '13 things your hairstylist won't tell you'
and it's all true...

it was true..no hairstyleist will tell this 13 things 2 you when u are doing ur hair,when u explain what u want,
n after he done with our hair...lol..
1 out of this 13 things actually caught my attention coz it actually happens 2 me..
No.10:i actually told that hairstylist to cut like did last time but she cut it into thinest and boyish hairstylist i ever seen..i'm so mad and after 3 days ..i just go and perm and act don't know to my hairstyle..!huhue..i hope my hair grow back and my hair doesn't screwed up again after this...

1. I'm a beautician, not a magician. I can give you Gisele Bündchen's haircut, but I can't give you her face.

2. Come at least five minutes early. If you're running late, please call ahead. Show me some basic respect. This is a business, not fun and games.

3. Don't ask me to "squeeze" you in when I'm already booked. I'd be taking time and effort away from other clients. You wouldn't like being treated that way.

4. Hairdresser school does not teach about counter transference, projection, negative reinforcement, or personality disorders. If you're looking for a therapist, all I have is a tail comb and an opinion.

Think be4 go to salon..the hairstylist might be saying yes2x and yes but she will be confuse..so maybe if u have the picture of hairstyle u want..u can cut it and show 2 the hairstylist..ohoho..or maybe u have the pic of ur old hair that u want cut it again just like that..bring the photo!hehe


 

gyahahahahaah!kittys!i'm crazy

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't read ila's blog yesterday so take a look 2day..and she added new post...and it really a great i mean totally and i really mean TOTALLY TERRIFIC NEWS!

i could have scream when i read it but luckly my mum is sleeping..if she's not here...i might as well open the front door and shout ila has brought new cats!!!!

i name it blacku
but then i remember i haven't know the gender yet...!

i try to think of better name although i just suddenly thought of its name

sounds like japanese name(blacku)
and hikushi
all that pops out inmy head is japan's name..
hrmmm....am i watching 2 much much of japan's anime???

and korean 2
ku min hi,ki min ju,hi yeo ku it pops out of my head suddenly...wat's wrong with me??

mexican 2
ferhikudo,marhita,

watevr...as long as i don't name it 'um'....

Agggrrrhhh

Future...u will never know about future..

there's intake in april but i'm really confused with wat i want to take when i'm in uni....

engineer,mass com(my mum said it's fun but the paid is not really u can enjoy with),hrmm,interpriners n' french cise(maybe the spelling is wrong)

and there's one thing while i busy trying 2 which one i want or good 4 me
the clock is ticking,the time is not gonna wait wait 4 me.....
i don't apply apply 4 march....but how april??may???july???
if it's 2 soon..could i take it or maybe it's too l8..
some of the universitys have the intakes on may
some of them only have on april/july
or march/july....

i hope i could decide faster or i have to enter form 6/finish form 6.......
i want stairght 2 uni but my mum say it's better if i wait while i take form 6


i don't know if it's better idea....hrmm...what u guys think???

i mizz everyone i know..leaving my country behind 2 achieve 2 better living style/my dreams..
can i survive in another country without knowing anyone.....
this path leads me 2 where i will grow become wat i supposed 2 be...
n i wonder if i can live better than today
i hope wat i learn can be used when i find jobs which can support me n family
this path will teach 2 live without 'rents
wether it's cold...it's hot...it's burning....it's challenging......fall 2 the ground
stand up back.....
can i break through........
i was hoping i can find a way out of troubles when i get there...

i want 2 study 2 london coz i have relative there but the living cost must be high...
so i cancelled that plan.........

I OPENED UP ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE..btw maybe who read this think i'm stupid n crazy

it's a no fairytales
maybe who read think i'm stupid
or think love life is a secret
but i'm bored of keeping it
keeping it away from my mom and dad.....
i do have feelings but it's not that strong feeling towards love....
maybe i'm stupid,maybe it's stupid.


at first..it was just a playgame 4 me
i took someone n dump him
becoz i don't feel like i want to be in loved
but i've broken up 2....
i see my mum with her bf(she's divorce)
she's is broken up...she needs fix
and it's so sad when she tell..
iqa,don't be in loved,,mens are useless,they just hurts
the girls out there..u see wat happens
2 me...but don't she think..i'm growing up..i have feelings like
other people 2....sometymes when i'm in loved i think bout her,
she must be broken up if she knew i was in loved so i just shut my love life
just like that
and be4 i knew it...all the love is turns 2 ashes no matter who i in love with
if he likes me then he don't like me..i just shut it off,,if don't like the person,i shut it off
if i like the person...i just shut it off coz i know he loves someone else..
so i'm like a robot when it comes 2 love,i hurt and the memory just slip away..and i replace it with anotherr memory of me n my family..
keep going on......

i never felt love in my heart..it's not that i ever hurt or wat
but it's naturally comes and suddenly the sparkle of love is gone
i don't know if i've been bad girl or wat..
but maybe god trying 2 not let me in loved coz if i'm in
maybe i'll be the broken hearted girl....
once i felt it and the scars are still there....


 don't know if i'm a stupid girl..all
i know is my love life is complicated
and when i'm in love,nothing goods came from it...

so wat is love???
maybe 2 those who in loved thinks love is sweet
but 2 me it brings bitterness,sometymes sweetness,confussion,tears and colours...


i'm not good in this love maze but i'm just always the girl who felt in love but i just
give up my love......tell ne why???ain't nothing but a heartache.....

love always bring me bad tymes so far
and when touch the love,it leave me
alone darkness forever..it keep coming but it always end
with thebroken glass

i seek my own self ,i try 2 figure wat is left
when i see wat left 4 me,i step out of
love.....i just so fed thinking be in loved
it's like freedom i searching for

it's hard for me to not care about it
i keep this secret form my 'rents
it's 2 hard when ur 'rents think u are
a little who is clean,who
is never be in loved,who is never have feeling towards


owh!my world is crashing down on me
please save me n take me away from this
situation owh god..
people think i'm stupid,people talk 2 me
i know nothing about love..tha's why i always
broken up by my love

i see this shadows of me,it walks alone with it's head down..
maybe i'm stupid,maybe i'm not ready 2 be in love
17 is hard 4 me..secret all in me
try break 2 free from myself..
all i can i do is watching
i'm sick of all my llife
owh god..please save me

no,i don't want another emotional breakdown

p/s:BTW..i'm not gonna kill myself becoz of love..
      i appreciate my life that is been given 2 me...

CONFUSED

how u feel 2wards me??
was it hate or different??
are u sure wat u feel??
u give 2 anybody

this heart bleeding when
the words came out of your mouth
is this a game where
involve a girl's heart

ashamed coz thinking u are the person
another story came up..
can i stop this feeling or should in flow like water and
never come back......

i started 2 feel comfortable
when we chat 2gether...
but it's all dream..i wake up
2 see wat is fall apart get back 2 pieces
when almost night but
it is at it's weakest point
2 get back 2 pieces...

can i walk n' live the way i want 2
when i live in confussion...
should i settle this once n for all
or this matter stuck in my head
but keep my life going ont??

it's your choice...
can i make my choices so fast but
i do know you can make the choices
u can do more fast 2 choose what u have 2
shall u feel sorry,regret,disgusted,or akward..


maybe this shell is not strong enough
it breaks..no one ever really understood it's feeling very well
so it's makes a new it shell...it happen all years
so it makes new shells every year..
could it still hold on....
no one could bear 2 suffers every year becoz of problems they have

sometymes crazy people are the best
of all.....but i'm not until crazy limits
could u break away by confussion??
the answers where evryone will know...

so how much this gonna takes form
eveyone...it's a lot...the tension is in the air
we draw sumthing where the visions are clear
at last some people regret it,some people confuse,some people
love it,some people just make it positive..some people are
forced to remember or forget it...

answer is wat we looking for every day of our life...

should i keep this short memory in ur head or leave it.....

this short memory..how would u described it??

in the end,i just smile and hoping 4 the best while hearts are bleeding
could i make up the pieces and make it clear without red marks
could i break away,
i torn inside but i just make my self harder
can't u see this bleeds and dying
hopes n wishes mix and i'm scared,
i'm alone,i'm in dark...don't u know...now no one
could have see it ...i just harden myself..this red marks everywhere
i just make it invisible...
i smile,my hearts happy,sad but wat could i do...it's not gonna come back
n leaving me in confussion....

LOL..Interview oleh mizz aqilah..model nya iqa..kunu...

Sponser by:own our own..
clothes:owned
make-up:ila n me
accesories..:owned

everything was sponser by own our own..so there no spending budget!hehe!

Pink-ILA
Blue-ME(IQA)
So Iqa! You're back! How're you feeling?
HAPPY OF COURSE AND THANKFUL...it's good to sleep in your own bed and see all the faces that u know and recognize like my mum and dad..my cousins,my friends and the cats of course.

Eh! Jap! Ko pun sedang makan ice-cream?
Eh EH!sma lgi 2 perisa kita...Kaw curi ice-cream 2 dri akue???nie nda blh jdi nie..perang ice-cream!
ui sot! mumy aku yg beli ne!
huh?!kaw ingat akue pecaya..kembalikan kudrat kue!

Ha? Apa tu kudrat?? @_@
kenapa kaw tanya akue??akue puwn nda taw...!
Ish! Ko ne! Bha sambung balik interview!
ai..sejuknya...bilik interview kono sejuk...hehe....

What do you think about PLKN and Negeri Sembilan??
Well,i think PLKN is great for making ourselves independent..teach us about our own decision,how u tolerate with others,it's more towards choosing your own life n teach you to be an independent person and always be honest. Negeri Sembilan is actually a some a sort of village, or suburb, not a town and most of their home is still the same as in the Zaman Kesultanan Melayu Melaka.. Most of them really have deep information about their religion..You can say they are religious people. It's not really hot outside my camp but sometimes the hotness is like biting u all over.

Wah, panjangnya jawapan! Sebentar ya saudari, saya pergi cuci gelas dahulu.
bha,saya setia menunggu di kerusi biru ini....

Itu adalah kerusi putih!
owh...nampaknya,saya gagal utk mengambil test driving lesson kalau begini...mengapa begini??adakah begini??

Begitulah~ (Indonesian accent) Baiklah! Mari kita teruskan. Ada tempat-tempat menarik di sana yang sempat anda kunjungi?
ada jga ya...guwe rasa tempat itu adalah tempat orang OKU ya...emangnya kasihan skali mereka... kebanyakannya nggak da ibu / bapa...nama tempat itu kalo guwe ngga silap PEMULIHAN DALAM KOMUNITI....ehehe.... selain itu,ada jga tempat2x yg menarik....seperti planetrium.tempat itu khasnya utk menonton animated 3D..banyak senario pendek yang dipaparkan tetapi dapat menarik minat kami semua...first,di skrin dipaparkan 3D..kemudian..kami disuruh mendongakkan kepala atau baring untuk menonton animasi 3D yang membuatkan kita berasa seperti travelling di angkasa..punya syiok...macam dongo kami tinguk atas 2...!hehe

Sounds fun! So did you make any new friends?
yes i did, apparently.There is one girl I'm very close with(semenanjung girl). Her name is Sumayyah. Dhe's the one who approach me in class for the first time. She just suddenly laughed and said to me "Hey! Join my group~". I didn't want to group with them. I was scared and she laughed again. I started to think, You don't know me. And nana,zurin,nisha,DK,jasmine..and lots of them..rozy,magert,kitty,carol...so many i guess...

That's good. And, um, any cute guys?? Hehehe
owh..why why why? Of all questions! Um..hi,um(dlm alice in wonderland)red queen big head! cut of their head!!(if she angry,all of her face become red) for me,there is none..all of them have nice hair ..smart hair at the first but after they shaved their hair off..OMG,they look simple...and funny..like the Einstein head that move up and down..so, nope..none at all....

Ish! Jangan ko tipu bha!
astagay,cat mka kaw pakai warna merah..biar kaw jadi ratu merah...

Ko ne, bagus2 Red Queen tu si Aiyn! Again, jan ko tipu bha~~~~ hehehe
ai..bukan kaw kah 2 mula2x..eh eh salah ya aiyn 2..kaw yang dragon 2 yg pandai kembang kempis kepala dya.....aiyn red queen,ila dragon,akue sie hatter lah..ahaha..na maw jdi white queen,maw buka pintu puwn pusing2x,...

Hatter ta*k ko! Napa ko x jawab tu?? Ketara la menipu~~~ hahahhaha
aitz na..malas akue maw jawab..terserah lah apa yang semue fikir...aiman(aiqa) tak kesa...hmmm...biarlah rahsia.....i takde sesiape...haha..betul puwn ejaan nye..

Sukehati awak la, Sapika. Hehe Don't you miss your friends and PLKN?
haha,watever le lal*t(loghat KL) definitely i do but I sure don't wanna get there for the second time.. :p.... I do miss my friends but nevermind..I'll fly to KL to meet them(like i got that much money) [laughs]

I see. So, your body are slightly toned, now. Do you love your new bod?
Ooh la la..I love it...It is definitely my dream to make my body toned but now I almost get what I want, the first stage to the second stage,hey hey!i'm not fat albert!

Your new bod sure is nice! Last but not least, any words for people who are about to attend the next series of PLKN??
owh..i'm gonna tell them ..be strong and don't make anything that would make yourself go into the flame! But i gotta tell u something,PLKN is really fun and u can make a difference from there..Remember, you'll be accompanied by a very beautiful tough lady....[laughs]

Right! Okay then! Thanks for being with us (which means me and the laptop) today.
My pleasure !!!thanks 4 inviting me and my wrist band to your house(can we call it house)..[Laughs] See u next time!

See you! Bha! Sana kau!
ah teda!akue di bangku!akue dengar tue...!

Ish! Sana dulu! Nanti baru ko tinguk hasilnya. Jeng3!
ah!nasib akue maw pi tandas juga.~ehem,merah muka~

Tyme lum apa2x laie..bju  besa..mekap puwn light...Be4 make-up

IQA OLDIES...SOMEHOW I ENDED UP SHOT MYSELF AND THIS OLDIES TITLE POPS OUT OF Y HEAD
AND BELOW IS USUAL PIC....HEHE..

BACK FROM PLKN!WOO HOO!

BACK FROM PLKN!

FIRST I WANNA SAY BOUT PLKN,IT'S NOT THAT BAD FROM MY EXPERIENCE EXCEWPT FOR THE WIRAJAYA,U HAVE 2 CARRY A REALLY BIG BAG N HEAVY...AND U GO IN THE JUNGLE,FIND SOME PLACES,FIND PEOPLE..SURVIVORS FROM PLANE CRASH(IT'S A SENARIO..NOT REAL)..AND WAKE UP AT 4.30 IN MORNING AND SLEEP IN 12.00 MIDNIGHT ....THAT'S TORTURING EVERY INCH OF MY SOUL!...LOL.ANYWAY,I DON'T HAVE MUCH 2 SAY BOUT PLKN IN MY BLOG ACTUALLY....I JUST WANNA SAY IN PLKN..U ARE LIKE FAMILY WIF ALL THE TRAINERS...

i lost my curl there..half of hair is sort of straight n half is curl...i hope my hair straight back as soon as possible..going to re-do my hair or straight it......

look at thesee stars..they have perfect hair
miley,taylor swift,hillary duff,selena,taylor momsen,taylor orianthi...

CAn U See ThOsE HaIr WaS So PrEtTy!..huhue!

i wish i don't cut my hair be4 going 4 PLKN...maybe aliltle but owh my god..that

girl has destroty my hair n in the end i have 2 curl my hair even if it's damege n my curl is destroy already..

i thinking of going out but my condition wouldn't let me go out..so i'm just gonna sit in my house until it's getting better and better..fuhhh!!!now i have 2 go..going 2 take my SPM results....

i hipe my skin back 2 normal ASAP!