i've been thinking bout my life

my dad doesn't work for goverment
but he is working for(i don't really know)
company which he will do a lecture,
and his paid is not high like the goverment
ones....

if someone buy the company's product then he will make a
profit...
and the profit is not 2 thousand but less than 2 thousand

and he trys to make money from others place like
joining one of his friend suggestions....

my mom is teacher,she been suffering from my stupid step-grandfather
debts(it's not 1 thousand but 6,000-10,000 thousand and it is not once but since my mum small and every year) .she been doing assignment and tuisyen even on night and work days and weekends my mom's salary every month only 3 thousand but her salary
had been cut because the goverment always cuted paid if the person have a house or credit-card to pay.all this time her money is not for me and her but for my
bloody hell useless step-grandfather.
i was confused all the time............

my mum have hot temper,maybe becuase she pressure too much since she small,
i just keep thinking wat can i do to get out of my miserable life......and help my mum to get out of her miserable life...............my mum is protectived,and it been cause by her life....she scared something happen to me........................
sometimes i pretend that anything is fine.................
i always stay tough in front my parents,i just couldn't cry in front of them and tell that how i felt about my life,because if i do,they heart will be in pain........

and for all the time,my mum and i never felt the true happiness,i confused even when i go to school i just pretend everything is fine.

and now my steep-grandpa is gone,he divorced wif my grandma...but our life is still the same,but i still thank god for making my grandma realise that my step-grandpa is useless...

and there's another big trouble come tis year,and it's really bother me,my mum
started to act weird tis year and i know it's because,she have done everything but then nothing is gonna change even if she do something,so maybe she thought she should enjoy life while she can...........i just been stuck by sadness,confussion and emptyness all my life............i felt i wanna die,just die,leave my life 4ever sometimes
but it burden my parents a lot more.

i'm not begging sympathy from people,i just wanna let it go on my own blog,if not,i might going crazy. i really hope i can change my life,bring my mum and my dad get out of their miserable life.
my miserable life makes me grow up more and learn not to waste money but save it,think about the consiquences be4 doing something and now i'm still deeling wif it...trying to find a way how make my heart strong when i felt hopeless without my parents and trying to find a way to get out of my miserable life.....

sob2x.....ada virus computer

sobsob

because of the virus called
trojan,i can't log in any account i have
(friendster and my blog)
for a month!
until now the virus is still become a problem for me and my cousin to log in,luckily my uncle have this new com
but from his workplace and it's for
1 year.........

so i can log in after a month but after the school open,
i think i may not be able to log in....

jalan2x!

ok,few daysago,we go to centre point
and watch movie again,well,we watch movie which is really stupid and bad ending!
aiyn forget her file at the ticket counter(8 floor)
and the funny part is aiyn's file was placed on the lost & found!hehe..
well,we actually talk about the ic that was placed at the lost and found
but then we gigle bacuse it happen to us.
we decide to watch the quarantined which
looks good!so,we buy the ticket and qilah seat at other placed with her date..
that movie is so thriller and its so yuck...we all regret becuase the ending is sucks!!!!

the ending is the poster...see,a bery bad ending...................

Miley Cyrus

i don't know why i write this but i feel like i want to talk about miley cyrus.....
well,she has pretty face,tall,have voice....yep...she have the package in her
but the only missing this year is her angel heart,when she first on set hannah montana,she was really innocent until now but after she's going with nick(Jonas Brother)...she start to weird like going to goth.........
well,at that tyme,of course,her fans include me wish she could change and their relationship doesn't ruin but it did,her trouble become bigger and bigger.....
she done a thing which the consequenceses in hollywood is making her career having a hard time,......that is she poked fun at selena gomez(nick's new GF).....at that time i wish miley survive from her hard time.......
but i don't blame miley for being bad girl for a moment,we don't know if she's stressred out or she having hard time but she don't tell the fan......and everyne makes mistakes and their can seek forgiveness either from god or the person who been trouble..
but she appologise to selena(i hope she realise)......
after all that happen her career is moving down a liltle bit..and slena's show has been replaced for hannah montana as top-rated show...............
well,that wasn't bad enough(poor miley),and this is about her picture....
well,at first i was like oh my god!miley is turning bad...!
but after i know that miley's phone were hacked,i really angry with the people who hacks miley phone's and without her knowing even permission,her private photo were spread in the internet..........
well,i see some of those because i don't believe miley did it,so that be4 i knew it wasn't her the one who spread her own picture.............
after i knew,i asking myself now,well,if u are in their country,and u are english,u used to have a boy in your early age even 14 or 15....,wat else u do...well,i don;t say their culture is bad and horibble...but it is their life..........
so,maybe some of us have the dodgy pix when we were not mature....??well,4 me i know when she with her friends,she will takes picture just for her and her friends collection but she don't intend to spread it..but only for herself to keep and her friends...maybe it's their happy moment(except maybe her posing with expose her skin too much(except if she wears bikini(they use to wear bikini when going to the beach) to the beach and the pappy's secretly capture her picture) or pouting on cam ..........)
well,every teenage girl makes mistake.......and i just hope miley will be fine and doing great now and healthy.......

b-day qilah's mix d8!

so....
it's da girls day out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we finally can get to cp last week...
hehe!

it's so fun

1st,we watch movie.....

qilah,me,afifah,aiyn and epal...........
1st,we want to watch the madagascar 2 but ila
is da birthday girl so we ask her to pick the movie!

so...she said madagascar but then she wants the quantum of solace(james bond)...at 1st we thinks it's so funny but when we watch it,it looks fine but there this funny part when james bond just killing people without check who there are propally....and his own boss ask to
just capture the people not kill...anyway..it's good movie!

and we are so suprise that....only 3 seats are taken....omg....and worse is one old man and couple.... haha!but we just take the movie,.... and we laugh and talk so loud in the cinema because only 3 people and we didn't realise it because it is only us at our seats and others except the couple and old man.... hehe....poor the couple.....they seems so distracted.....!
and... its for us to separate ..qilah with epal have d8
aiyn and me and afifah find a part tyme job (except ifa),we got the promenade hotel and meridian(but aiyn lost the meridian form...hehe)
so promenade left.....but be4 that we eat waffle..hehe except aiyn cupcorn............
as we finish find the part tyme job,we don't know
wat else to do,watch movie back???too far to go to cp and its already like 3.00 in the evening so we do something which stupid!
we go to warisan and capture pic in padini's store
and...urgh...we don't realise sign which state no pixs....but we managed to capture some.....aiyn then pretend to watch her phone,afifah..run out from the store and me..urghh..i point the no pixs sign and said "hey!it's the sign,why don't we look at it at the first???"then the salesgirl girl behind my back laugh and i go straighttgo the exit door...
SO EMBRASSING.....!!!!!!!!!
then,we are hunger for the long walk, and we go to big apple,and oh!i never forget that moment,i eat the pink panther,aiyn cappucino,ifa oreo.........oh.....the pink panther that i eat is so tasty!inside it have a strawberry cream which is taste like ice cream...my gosh!we also drinks hot chocolate but we share1 for 3,it save our money
then,we wait for epal but epal go home already
so we ait ila....but she keeps replying our sms.....a minute...well
i understand how she felt even dow i never date...haha.............
so...ila finally came to us......owh..
but this is embrassing,i aslept in the bus and thank god afifah save my head fall to the guy next to me...thanks afifah..i couldn't imagine how embrassed if my head fall to the next guy....arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway,we have a blast day.........................and there's us with our tired and happy face!

ifa's school

so,i didn't wrote about
anything things this days...u want to know why??simple...i'm too lazy to write....hehe!
2 weeks ago,i goes to afifah's school
for her 5a's celebration and the prize...so she suppose to
get on the stage and receive her prize and sijil.....she did..
her school was not really good looking but inside it have a pond,a clock tower,well,looks same with clock tower but shorter than clock tower,the field in front of the canteen and car park....
p/s:the pix is been erase be4 i could upload to my own blog but my cousin have the pic in her blog.....
so as we go in,we find sits but
i and qilah so hungry,so we borrow some money from afifah and
find wat we can eat and drink at the canteen...and we found the chocolate muffin and its cheap...only rm 0.80...and ice lemon tea ping for rm 1.20...yummyyyy!
qilah even meet her friends there,
farrahin and aina...so she chat aith them from across her chair lil bit...while we waiting 4 afifah going up the stage...afifah came and join us for while...she join us..and we have a idea to take pictures of us 3....so we ask farra to help us to take our pix...
fromleft:afiah,me(iqmya),qilah
ok,well,actually my elective subject only 30 over (except physics..27 bluekk!!...so bad)because it's science stream and is new and hard..

so after taking nicki's pix,we go to
the canteen and well,drink and eat!so much fun when we eat and drinks

lollipop dreaming

lollipop......
the most tasty candy in the world!

so long i don't eat lollipop,
when i see lollipop,
i felt so happy,but it make me dizzy when playing around with the circlation of the lollipop...

i wanna eat lollipop...
one of friend bring lollipop.....sob2x...
but it's not his/her lollipop but from his/her other friend who want wants him to give the his/her crush...nowadays...lollipop is a good started for a a couples or crush..haha!teda2x...use lollipop....
p.s[guna his/her untuk identity yg tidak ingin dibocori]
starting from that moment..i can't wait to find a lollipop and buy it(the big one)....sob2x~~~~~